Chitta viksepa or a disturbed mind is the result of encountering obstacles to practice. One of the common reason for disturbance in our mind is our interaction with other people. Our interaction usually results in judgement and perception of their state or actions. Our state of mind is effected by our experience of the state or action of other people we interact with. Patanjali recommends an appropriate response which helps our interactions to not result in a disturbed state of mind.
As part of my yoga course we had to do a practice with awareness, and I chose to experiment with Upeksa or equanimity. Patanjali proposes that equanimity is the appropriate way to respond when we think the actions performed by another person are not proper or Apunya. More than me choosing upeksa, I found myself deeply judgemental about how everyone “must” do things in “the right” way. As I began to catch myself in this state of judgement I began to see how I was feeling disturbed by others actions. Upeksa became a natural choice to practice.
Understanding Equanimity
I understood equanimity as a balanced state of mind and “not getting upset” or “not lose temper”. The first step of the practice was to catch myself describing the actions of others as “wrong” or “must be done differently” or “must be much better” or “you don’t know” or “you are doing wrong” etc. I noticed that I was getting disturbed whenever I brought
myself in this space of judgement. The disturbance did not allow me to function as my effective self.
All my experience is my perception, and my perception is based on my knowledge. I realized that in every moment my judgement is always coming from an incomplete understanding of reality. And therefore felt there is no need for me to perceive any action as wrong. Arriving at this realization that a judgement of right and wrong is fairly futile, helped me to stay clear of judging as right and wrong, ofcourse whenever I could be conscious. I also noticed that if I try to identify the deepest positive intention behind the actions of people, I invariably land up seeing a possible positive intention.
Judgement to compassion
When I catch myself describing someone’s actions as inappropriate or wrong, I began to ask myself if it was really my job to judge. This conscious pause to inquire helped me not lose my temper and be calm while dealing with actions I felt were wrong. My ability stay away from judgement allowed me to empathise better with the person I was interacting with. This empathy then lead to listening to the other person only to notice that they are either experiencing sukham or duhkham. Then my response could be modified from judgement to either maitri (friendship) or karuna (compassion). I was successful atleast a couple of times during the course of the two months in practicing compassion after listening to the opposite person to whom my initial response was judgement.
In the earlier weeks the practice was fairly intense. As the days rolled by the intensity of the practice of Upeska really came down. But the entire exercise has left a lasting impression on me. I often catch myself judging and am able to notice the pattern closely. Atleast some of the times I am able to remain calm even when I think the other is doing wrong.




